last on your list

have you ever make any list of priority in ur life?
or have you make some priority before doing something?
something in my life push me to always make priority
i dont know bout urs


making a priority means you have to decide which more important than others
which one must u prioritize
in this part, i know, i'm not always good
sometimes i'm so bad in decided
but basic rules is i always prioritize people than my self
in some way, i did it with whole heart
but in unpredictable-emotions, i do grumble


ooo, why dont u asked me, have you been in my priority list?
yes, u always been!
and then i asked u, have i been in ur priority?
maybe u'll say something like "yes, u there but most of time i put u last on my list caused by many other important things in my life"
woow! long answer. great answer!

okee then, i know where i'm
and i know what to do then
last thing in ur mind, last name on ur list
so, why did u still keeping me?
it's easier for you to kick me off ur list
and then u'll be live happily ever after


i'll re-create my list now
and still put ur name on 4 after my thesis, my job and family
the difference is i never admit there's number 4 in my list!
i just can see 5 after 3
sorry.

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I can't sleep
I just can't breathe
When your shadow is all over me baby
Don't wanna be a fool in your eyes
Cause what we had was built on lies


And when our love seems to fade away
Listen to me hear what I say
I don't wanna feel, The way that l do
I just wanna be right here with you
I don't wanna see, see us apart
I just wanna say it straight from my heart
I miss you

here's something i could tell you directly, but Westlife can do
all those word i hope out directly from my mouth
but it locked and i dont know where i can find the key
i just hoping someone could understand
and take me to the place where i can feel safe and warm
but yet, no one understand.

i'm no where

i'm no where
not in your heart nor in your side


i'm no where
not in your place nor in my home


i'm no where
just walking around the street
follow where the sun takes me
hearing where the wind wants me to


i'm no where
no where to go
no where to live
no where to hide
no where to run

i'm no where
and i'm alone
that's what exactly i know now

Loebaay!

i thank GOD
for giving me you as a friend and lover
realizing if i lose you, was a very bad dreamt i never wanted


know u weren't always be there when i need
but untill now, only u could understand me excellently
haaaa, too much dramatization but that what i feel


love you, mbul :)